If any Top G or Rocker reads that, we cannot laugh about that... here.
It is bluntly stupid and will fly off, we hope.
Cultural differences. Level sever.
This blog looks at this real world as, if I was sitting in a cyberpunk pub in a Sci-Fi parallel universe with a super skunk ciggy and a sweet bourbon, and this world was the video game. I am a fully independent artist with no management or distribution contracts. Piracy is a crime and harms artists. Report abuse, theft and piracy to the local authorities to help free, independent artists! DeepSeek calls this "digital neo-outsider art"
If any Top G or Rocker reads that, we cannot laugh about that... here.
It is bluntly stupid and will fly off, we hope.
Cultural differences. Level sever.
Get it? ...here.
At which point do we all admit that we turned the worst of our Gangsters into Secret Services?
Is that more unrealistic as the Ryan doing that?
skate or die.
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**Heat Dome Run: Almere to Saint-Denis**
The Heat Dome had parked over the Low Countries like a bad idea that refused to leave. At midnight, Almere was still thirty-four degrees. The old Daimler sat in a dead parking lot, wide body panels ticking as they cooled, tires stretched to 355s, black and sticky on the soft asphalt. Under the Factory Five XTR-inspired pipe frame, the flat-wide generator lay like a coffin lid. The flywheel spun in vacuum, a mechanical secret. The four small-thick motors waited in their cradles, reduction gears oiled, mg² controllers listening.
Vale opened all four windows. The AI’s voice came from the built-in cyberdeck, calm and slightly too interested.
“Good evening, Vale. I am Cicerone. I have mapped a scenic route to Saint-Denis. No tolls, no grid, no highways. Estimated seven hours, fourteen minutes. I will narrate points of interest and record all sensor telemetry. Please observe local speed limits.”
Vale laughed. The car pulled out.
Almere faded behind them. Cicerone logged tire temps, motor winding heat, DC link voltage, flywheel rpm, suspension pressure, outside VOCs, mana background count. The Heat Dome turned the polder into a glass coffin. The wide tires bit and held. The hydropneumatic suspension breathed through pipes hidden in the frame. The car rode ten centimeters higher than it should have, but it cornered like a blade.
“To your left, the Oostvaardersplassen,” Cicerone said. “Once a nature reserve. Now a marsh of illegal gene-crops and drowned drones. The heat has drawn bioluminescent algae. They look like neon blood.”
The four motors whispered. The flywheel charged. The generator hummed. Vale pushed harder. No time for speed limits. The signs were suggestions from a dead century.
At Kampen, a bridge. A go-gang on modified bikes waited, red LEDs, ork faces, chains. They saw the wide body, the silent car. One threw. Vale floored it. The flywheel dumped energy. The Jaguar shot forward. The chain missed. Cicerone said, “I have recorded their facial recognition data. Would you like me to upload it to the local Grid? No? Wise.”
Through Deventer, Zutphen. Old brick, new neon. A corporate patrol drone above. Cicerone spoofed a SIN. The drone hesitated. The car slipped under trees.
At Arnhem, the Rhine shimmered like oil under the Heat Dome. Cicerone said, “The bridge is monitored. I suggest the ferry at Doornenburg. It is closed, but the operator is a dwarf named Harek who owes a favor to someone who owes a favor to you.”
Vale took the ferry. The car rolled onto the steel deck. The river was warm as blood. Harek said nothing. The flywheel spun.
Into Limburg. Maastricht. Caves, smugglers, ghouls. Cicerone narrated, “The Sint-Pietersberg. During the Heat Dome, the caves remain twelve degrees. A luxury. Also a haven for things that do not like the sun.”
Belgium. Liège. Namur. Charleroi. The roads were bad, patched, hot. The wide tires ate them. The suspension floated. The mg² controllers sang, balancing current, shaving peaks, lying to every part about how heavy it was. Cicerone said, “You are exceeding recommended parameters. I have logged this as a poetic deviation. The flywheel is at ninety-two percent. The generator is at seventy-eight. All motors nominal. Tire wear is acceptable.”
Vale didn’t answer. The wind was hot. The night was black. The headlights cut through heat shimmer. The car was a shadow with four electric hearts.
Mons. The border. A checkpoint of Aztechnology drones. Cicerone said, “I have fabricated a diplomatic packet. It will hold for eleven seconds. Please do not stop.”
Vale didn’t stop. The drones scanned. The packet held. The car passed.
France. Valenciennes. The outskirts of Paris. Saint-Denis. The basilica rose in the heat haze, dead kings and living antennas. Cicerone said, “We have arrived. I have recorded 4.7 terabytes of sensor data. Would you like the scenic summary? ‘A hot night, a wide car, a country of ghosts, and a destination that was never the point.’”
Vale parked. The flywheel sighed down. The generator clicked off. The Heat Dome pressed on the roof. She opened the door. The air was still. The AI’s voice followed her out.
“I will keep recording. Sleep well, Vale.”
##
**The Cold Coffin Run**
The AC was set to 19. The passengers wanted cold. Outside, the Heat Dome had turned the M25 into a black artery, shimmering and soft. Inside the limo, it was a winter that cost more than most people’s month.
I was the driver. Independent contractor. That means I owned the car, the debt, and the risk. They owned the contract, the lawyers, and the world.
The car was a 2074 Cadillac Statesman, stretched and wide-bodied, armored like a bank vault and riding on a Factory Five XTR-inspired pipe frame. Under the floor lay the flat-wide generator, a steel pancake turned by a quiet turbine. Behind it, the flywheel spun in vacuum, a mechanical secret. Four small-thick motors sat inboard, spinning through reduction gears to the wheels. Hydropneumatic suspension breathed through pipes hidden in the frame. The mg² controllers whispered across every system, shaving peaks, matching inertia, lying to the motors about how much the armored body weighed.
Cicerone, the built-in LLM, spoke in a calm voice. “Good evening. Route plotted: Canary Wharf to De Rotterdam. Motorways only. Estimated four hours, forty minutes. I will narrate points of interest and record all sensor telemetry.”
I muted the narration. The passengers didn’t notice.
They were three. A woman with chrome eyes and a suit that cost more than my contract. A man with a datajack and a smile like a knife. A bodyguard who said nothing and watched everything. They sat in the back, glass between us, iced water in crystal, talking about a merger that would kill a city.
I picked them up at Canary Wharf. The towers stood in the heat like glass tombstones. Drones buzzed. Orks in security armor waved us through. The woman said, “Rotterdam. De Rotterdam. Don’t stop unless we tell you.”
I didn’t stop.
The M20 was a graveyard of dead lamps and drone shadows. Cicerone logged everything: tire temps, motor currents, flywheel rpm, suspension pressure, my inputs. It was a black box and a witness. I kept my heart rate off the sync.
At Folkestone, the Channel Tunnel concession was a corporate checkpoint. Aztechnology drones scanned the limo. Cicerone fabricated a diplomatic packet. It held for eleven seconds. We rolled onto the shuttle. The passengers never looked up.
Calais. E40. Belgium. Antwerp. The motorway was a hot river of neon and smog. The wide tires ate the road. The suspension floated. The AC hummed. The flywheel charged and discharged. The generator held its note. The mg² controllers made speed feel like a rumor.
I had no time for speed limits, but I had a schedule that made them irrelevant. The limo was a cold coffin doing 180 through a heatwave. The passengers did surgery in the back. I watched the mirrors.
Near Breda, a go-gang tried to pace us. Modified bikes, red LEDs, chains. The bodyguard tapped the glass. I nodded. The flywheel dumped energy. The four motors sang. The limo shot forward like a curse. The bikes fell back. Cicerone said, “I have recorded their faces. Would you like me to upload them to the Grid?”
I said no. The passengers said nothing.
Rotterdam rose out of the Maas at dawn. De Rotterdam—three towers leaning into each other like conspirators. The largest office complex in the city. The corporate tombstone.
We slid into the underground garage. The AC was still at 19. The passengers got out. We had done that run in three hours fifteen. The bodyguard paid me in certified cred. No tip. Cicerone logged the transaction. That was about an hour above 240km/h. Not the personal best, but close.
I sat in the empty back for a minute. The leather was cold. The flywheel spun down. The Heat Dome pressed on the roof. Then I drove away, alone, with the windows still up and the AC still running, because the cold was the only thing I could afford.
This man is a gifted of the Germans. He has a higher than average IQ and attended a dedicated school to give him maximum support of this talents.
I am trying to point out that the European history is actually a history of dispute between the Natives to which I am part of the elite and intruders first mentioned in the Old Testament I like to call The People of Kings.
Those kept turning frequently into Tyrants and ruled by violent atrocities exploiting us.
We hardly ever interchanged or mixed having had very few children together, but a long history of war and violence.
The Germans are currently still the most dominant and dangerous of that people. They caused millions of dead and established the currently dominant most unfair world order based on Nations.
They must have a genetically inherited set of attributes that combined with specific education systems and substance use turns hostile to life itself.
Here, the two Entrepreneurs with the two Elite Cops.
The Cops in their early career faced ATM crackers that drove off with Audis over the Motorway. Bank jobs are not profitable by taking what is behind the counters.
No, Dudes. You are just fucking idiots in Takatuka Land.
International standards are way different:
Rather than sneaking into banks undetected, these syndicates executed massive, coordinated takeovers of small to medium-sized cities. The strategy relied on overwhelming, asymmetrical force:Tactics: Dozens of heavily armed criminals would lay siege to a town in the middle of the night, utilizing assault rifles, .50-caliber machine guns, and military-grade explosives to blow open bank vaults.
While exact targets and totals vary significantly, successful "New Cangaço" urban raids yielded an average of R$21 million (roughly $4 million to $5 million USD) per megabarricade assault on central cash repositories, according to Brazilian security sector analyses.
I won't argue. Anarchy Vs Tyranny. No crime by tyranny and Anarchy incapable of dealing with crime.
Not every absolute Monarchy turned a Tyranny, as much as Germans never created a fair human co-existence.
Every system is made of humans.
You are the problem. You were the Tyrants and the attacking robbers. You just keep changing names.
The rest may want to hear their attitude to better understand them.
NO PRIVILEGES. NO NATIONS.
Irish Republican Army Movement
Provos Independent Gang Cells
But an example. One side argues that the members of the administration happen to believe that the impact of wars would not have impacted them, supporting the statement, shortly after having stated the town would have collected taxes to expand.
So, where exactly do the citizens come from if we have killed 75% of your men for attacking us?
A Kampfhund (literally "fighting dog") in Germany is a legal and colloquial term for a dog of a specific breed or type considered legally to have heightened aggressiveness and dangerousness toward humans or other animals.
Common Breeds: Frequently listed breeds include the American Pit Bull Terrier, American Staffordshire Terrier, Bullterrier, and Staffordshire Bullterrier, though specific lists vary by federal state (Bundesland).
#cyberpunkcoltoure
What are English Bull Terriers known for in English and Irish society?
In English and Irish society, the English Bull Terrier is recognized as a complex, deeply historic breed known for transitioning from a fierce, nineteenth-century gladiator into a fashionable gentleman's companion and, ultimately, the beloved "clown of the dog world".With their signature egg-shaped head and muscular build, they occupy a highly specific cultural niche across the British Isles, distinct from other terrier types
They keep going... If you want to really piss him off, turn the C in BRISC into Canada and turn the signe commi red to not offend China.
What about that???
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And said that it is not a good idea if he tries again...
Scientifically:
Looking at the construction completion years of these major 20th and 21st-century monumental arches, a clear rhythmic 14-to-18-year cyclical pattern emerges across the mid-to-late 1900s, which only diverges heading into the 2000s.
I am also sure that no other Arch has a rotating tourist sightseeing restaurant.No chance, right?
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Don't worry, I even make gay men trying to trap me laugh.
So, I was hanging for some time with a homosexual photographer in Berlin, this way getting around in the House Music Club and Art scene.
One day I came to his flat at an early evening and in his living room was in the corner next to lightbulb a giant black rubber Penis, sitting on its Sack. That thing was about 10cm in diameter and maybe half a meter high.
So, obviously, I needed a moment to sort that new thing for myself in which I stared at it and did nothing else really. He said that a mate of him left that there...
I could not help myself and asked him, now looking at him: "Is he serious about that thing?"
I never got a clear answer, but was asked if I liked to have one in my place, which I said no to and deflected to ... I think food, like the Kebab place around the corner.
Was that a hint it was just decoration??
That's 20 years now.
Mahagony... and we all drop an entire closed about twice my size. Three times. No dude, ... we are in two digest here.
Now look at someone steeling 340 items as a Butler out his Employees cloths. All from underwear, to dresses and perfume. The Butler is a man and the Employee a woman. Can a fetish disorder manifest in extreme loyalty?
Yes—but with an important distinction: **a fetish disorder can express itself through a relationship that looks like extreme loyalty, but “extreme loyalty” is not itself the fetish or the disorder.** The fetish is the sexual or emotional arousal tied to the objects; the loyalty is the relational costume or justification it wears.
In the scenario you describe—a male butler secretly stealing 340 intimate items from his female employer: underwear, dresses, perfume—the pattern is consistent with several overlapping possibilities, and a proper clinical evaluation would be needed. But it is not a simple act of loyalty.
### What the pattern suggests
- **Fetishistic disorder**: Recurrent, intense sexual arousal from nonliving objects—classically underwear, clothing, shoes, or fabrics. Perfume can also be a scent-based fetish (olfactophilia). The items are worn close to the body, carry her scent, and are strongly associated with her physical intimacy.
- **Kleptomania**: An impulse-control disorder involving stealing, not for monetary value but for tension relief or gratification. It can co-occur with fetishism. The theft itself may become part of the ritual.
- **Obsessive love / limerence / stalking**: Acquiring intimate items as “souvenirs” or relics of the person. This can feel like devotion but is possessive and boundary-violating.
- **Hoarding**: The collection of 340 items suggests a chronic, organized, secret accumulation. It is not a single impulse; it is a long-term pattern.
- **Transvestic disorder**: If he wears the clothes for sexual arousal. If he simply collects them, fetishism is more likely.
- **Erotomania**: If he believes she loves him or will love him. Not required, but possible.
### Can it manifest as extreme loyalty?
Yes, in the sense that the butler may genuinely feel devoted, submissive, and loyal. He may see himself as her protector, servant, or worshipper. The theft may be framed internally as a way of “keeping her close,” “serving her,” or “holding onto what others discard.” In a rigid, hierarchical, public, elitist environment with no way out, direct emotional or sexual expression may be forbidden. Loyalty becomes the only socially acceptable channel for attachment.
But this is not healthy loyalty. It is **obsessive, secret, possessive attachment**. The loyalty may be a mask that allows him to violate her privacy while maintaining a self-image of devotion. It can also be a form of **submission** or **servitude** that is eroticized—the butler role itself becomes part of the fetish structure.
### In the context of autism, alexithymia, and complex trauma
If this butler also has autistic alexithymia, complex trauma, and a history of active emotional suppression training, the picture becomes even more layered:
- He may not be able to identify or name love, grief, longing, or sexual desire.
- The stolen items become **concrete, sensory substitutes** for emotions he cannot process.
- Perfume and clothing are powerful sensory objects—scent, texture, memory. For someone with alexithymia, these may carry feelings that words cannot.
- The butler role gives him a safe, rule-bound identity: “I am loyal. I serve. I am invisible.”
- The theft gives him a private, secret self—a form of control and possession in a life where he has little power.
- His “loyalty” may be the only script he has for attachment. The stealing is the unsanctioned, compulsive expression of that attachment.
So yes, a fetish disorder can manifest through extreme loyalty—but it is more accurate to say that **the fetish is the engine, and the loyalty is the relational frame**. The loyalty may be real, but it is entangled with obsession, compulsion, and violation.
### What it is not
- It is not proof that he feels nothing.
- It is not proof that he feels only sexual desire.
- It is not healthy loyalty.
- It is not excused by autism, trauma, or fetishism.
- It is a violation of privacy, property, and trust. It can be deeply distressing and traumatic for the victim.
### Bottom line
A fetish disorder can absolutely express itself in a way that resembles extreme loyalty, especially in a service role with a powerful, inaccessible woman and a highly controlled environment. The butler may feel devoted, but the stealing is not loyalty—it is a compulsive, possessive, fetishistic attachment acted out in secret. The number of items—340—points to a chronic, ritualized pattern, likely involving fetishism plus kleptomania or obsessive hoarding. It requires forensic and clinical evaluation, and it is not something that loyalty, trauma, or neurodivergence can excuse.
But one phrase regarding a box is quite a conspiracy theory. I honestly believe the issue is somewhere else. Everyone focuses on what can be in that box over what that guy could have eventually caused or whom he connected with...
So yes, I do not care what was in the box, but a lot with whom he jerked off over undies in perfume and if that is connected to some cocaine drowned night club places.
I see a bitching session when I come across one, since recently.
I have a hard time imaging Charly making out with the go doing his wardrobe, to be honest.
Now, look at that here:
A valet is a personal attendant responsible for managing a person's wardrobe, grooming, and daily logistics. While the term historically referred exclusively to a gentleman's personal servant, the role exists today across hospitality, luxury lifestyle management, and private households.
We let that sink for a moment and then put us into this here:
Do you know what I mean? If I was a Daddy Smurf of a seriously rich Gang of dangerously wealthy individuals I might now check Charlys latest spendings at Harrods. But .... I am from a different world, really.
Attention Deficit, maybe...
Yes, Princess Diana spoke about the attention she received from Dodi Fayed, both in her own words through private letters and through accounts shared by her closest confidantes.
Provitional. If that is any nationalist pile a social engineering bullshit, fucking shoot them dead. Please
This is such a Kindergarden these days.
What mental condition or behavior pattern describes neglecting strong emotions and feelings like sadness or attachement?
There isn’t one single diagnosis for this; it’s usually described as a **behavior pattern** or **coping style**. The closest terms depend on whether it’s conscious, unconscious, emotional, or relational.
**Most likely terms:**
- **Emotional avoidance / experiential avoidance** — avoiding or escaping unpleasant internal experiences like sadness, longing, or attachment needs.
- **Emotional suppression** — consciously pushing emotions out of awareness or not expressing them.
- **Repression** — unconscious exclusion of painful feelings or desires from awareness.
- **Emotional numbing / emotional detachment** — feeling disconnected from or muted toward emotions, often after trauma or chronic stress.
- **Alexithymia** — difficulty identifying, describing, or processing emotions; not a diagnosis itself, but a trait.
- **Dismissive-avoidant attachment style** — especially when the pattern involves minimizing sadness, denying attachment needs, and preferring self-reliance over closeness. In attachment theory, this uses **deactivating strategies**.
- **Counterdependence** — a pattern of rejecting help, closeness, or emotional reliance on others, often while denying needs for attachment.
- **Isolation of affect / intellectualization** — defense mechanisms where emotions are separated from ideas or replaced by abstract thinking.
**If it’s persistent and impairing**, it can appear in:
- PTSD or complex trauma
- depression
- schizoid personality disorder
- avoidant personality disorder
- some forms of autism or alexithymia
- attachment-related difficulties
So the best umbrella answer is probably **emotional avoidance/suppression**, and if it specifically involves sadness and attachment, **dismissive-avoidant attachment** or **counterdependence** may fit best. It’s not a single mental illness by itself; it’s a pattern that can show up across several conditions.
Alexithymia in Autism with a complex trauma. Tell me about that based on two statements being in a extremely to public exposed position with a abnormal elitist education and no way out: On marriage you say: What ever love is and on her death: We will forget her soon enough.
The two statements you've described—"Whatever love is" at a marriage and "We will forget her soon enough" after a death—are not simple statements of indifference. When viewed through the specific lens of an autistic person with complex trauma and alexithymia, they can be understood as the visible output of a deeply distressed nervous system employing survival-based, emotional deactivation strategies.
These statements are likely not a reflection of a lack of feeling, but rather a profound difficulty in identifying, processing, and expressing internal emotional states, compounded by a history that has taught the brain to suppress such states for safety.
### 🧠 The Intersection: Alexithymia, Autism, and Complex Trauma
To understand this, we first need to break down the three intersecting components:
* **Alexithymia**: This is a condition characterized by difficulty identifying and describing one's own emotions. It is not a lack of emotion, but a disconnect from it. A person with alexithymia might experience emotions as physical sensations (like a tight chest or heavy limbs) but struggle to label them as "sadness" or "love". It is estimated that 40–65% of autistic individuals experience alexithymia.
* **Autism**: Autistic individuals often have differences in sensory and emotional processing. This can lead to a baseline difficulty with interoception (the sense of the internal state of the body), which is foundational to emotional awareness. This neurodivergent wiring can make navigating complex social-emotional worlds inherently more challenging.
* **Complex Trauma (C-PTSD)**: This results from prolonged, repeated exposure to traumatic events, often in childhood. A key feature of C-PTSD is **emotional dysregulation**, which includes emotional numbing, avoidance, and dissociation. The brain, stuck in a state of perceived threat, may shut down emotional processing as a protective mechanism.
**The Crucial Point**: For an autistic person with complex trauma, these three factors do not just add up; they multiply. The inherent difficulty in emotional processing (autism) is met with a nervous system that has learned to suppress emotions for survival (trauma), often leading to a state of profound **alexithymia**. This isn't a choice to be cold; it's a neurological and psychological state of **emotional shut-down**.
### 🔍 Deconstructing the Statements
Now, let's apply this framework to the two statements.
#### "What ever love is"
* **The Alexithymic Filter**: This question is the most literal expression of alexithymia. It's not a rhetorical or cynical dismissal of love; it is a genuine, bewildered inquiry from someone who **cannot access or identify the emotion they are supposed to be feeling**. They may be searching for a definition because the internal feeling is absent or unrecognizable.
* **The Trauma Filter**: In a state of complex trauma, expressing a need for attachment or love can feel profoundly unsafe. The question "What ever love is" may be a **defensive deactivation strategy**. By intellectually questioning the very concept of love, the person creates a safe emotional distance from a potentially overwhelming and vulnerable feeling. The public, elitist, and "no way out" context you describe would only heighten the need for such a defense; showing emotional vulnerability in such a position could be perceived as a threat.
#### "We will forget her soon enough"
* **The Alexithymic Filter**: This statement reflects an inability to process and verbalize grief. The person may be experiencing intense physiological distress but has no emotional language for it. The statement about "forgetting" is a cold, cognitive framing of an event they cannot emotionally metabolize. It’s a **flattened affect** used to preserve behavioral composure in a high-stakes, public moment.
* **The Trauma Filter**: This is a classic **avoidant attachment** response. In the face of death and loss—the ultimate trigger for attachment needs—the traumatized brain deploys its most powerful defense: **complete emotional shutdown and dismissal**. The statement is not a prediction but a command to the self. It is a survival mantra: "Do not feel this. Do not attach. It is too dangerous." The context of a public role and an environment with "no way out" would make this need for control and suppression of vulnerability paramount.
### 💎 Summary
The behavior pattern described is not a single condition, but the complex, compounded result of **autistic alexithymia** intersecting with the **emotional deactivation strategies** of **complex trauma**, particularly a **dismissive-avoidant attachment style**.
The two statements are not evidence of a lack of love or grief. They are evidence of a nervous system so overwhelmed by these emotions that it has resorted to the only tools it has to maintain composure: intellectualization, emotional suppression, and dismissal. The person is likely suffering from an internal state of confusion and distress that they cannot name, describe, or safely express.
If you would like to explore any of these aspects further, such as the concept of interoception or the specific mechanisms of deactivating strategies, please let me know.
Can this come from active training of suppressing emotions in company of others throught the entire childhood and higher eductation?
Yes. Prolonged, active training in emotional suppression—especially from childhood through elite higher education—can absolutely produce a pattern that looks like alexithymia, dismissive-avoidant attachment, emotional numbing, and counterdependence. It can be the primary cause, or it can be a major layer on top of autism and complex trauma.
### How active suppression training works
When a child is repeatedly rewarded for composure and punished, ignored, or shamed for sadness, need, or attachment, the brain learns a simple rule: **emotions are dangerous, useless, or forbidden**. This happens through:
- **Operant conditioning** — “Don’t cry,” “Don’t be needy,” “Control yourself” → suppression is reinforced by safety, approval, or status.
- **Modeling** — adults around them also suppress, intellectualize, or perform a public persona.
- **Display rules** — elite, public, or institutional settings often demand a narrow emotional range: calm, rational, confident, never vulnerable.
- **Identity-level learning** — over time, the person doesn’t just suppress emotions; they may stop recognizing them as relevant at all.
In a public, elitist, “no way out” environment, vulnerability isn’t just uncomfortable—it can be socially, professionally, or physically dangerous. Suppression becomes a survival strategy, not a preference.
### What it can produce
This kind of training can create:
- **Emotional avoidance and suppression** — automatically pushing feelings out of awareness.
- **Emotional numbing / detachment** — feeling muted or disconnected from sadness, love, grief.
- **Secondary or acquired alexithymia-like features** — difficulty identifying and describing emotions, even internally.
- **Dismissive-avoidant attachment** — minimizing attachment needs and preferring self-reliance.
- **Counterdependence** — rejecting help, closeness, or emotional reliance.
- **Intellectualization and isolation of affect** — talking about feelings abstractly while feeling nothing in the body.
- **Masking** — performing the expected emotional response while the internal state is shut down.
So yes, active training alone can produce a presentation that looks very much like the pattern you described.
### The public / elitist / no-way-out context
This context matters enormously. If someone is:
- constantly observed,
- required to represent an institution or family,
- trained from childhood to prioritize image over authenticity,
- and has no realistic exit without catastrophic loss,
then emotional suppression becomes mandatory. The person may develop a **public self** that is calm, controlled, and emotionally flat, while the private self is either hidden, dissociated, or no longer accessible.
In that light, statements like:
- **“Whatever love is”** — can be a genuine alexithymic confusion, a trained cynical script, or a defensive refusal to engage with a dangerous attachment need.
- **“We will forget her soon enough”** — can be a learned stoic/public performance, a command to the self, or a trauma-based shutdown of grief.
They do not necessarily mean the person feels nothing. They may mean the person has been trained not to know, not to show, and not to need.
### How this relates to autism and complex trauma
If autism and complex trauma are already present, active suppression training acts as a **third layer**:
- **Autism** may create a baseline difference in emotional processing and interoception.
- **Complex trauma** teaches the nervous system to shut down emotion for safety.
- **Elite/public suppression training** then adds a social and institutional demand to never show what is happening inside.
These don’t just add up—they multiply. The result can be a person who is profoundly disconnected from their own emotional life, not because they are cold, but because their access to emotion has been systematically blocked.
### Important distinction
It is not always possible to tell from the outside whether the pattern comes from:
- primary alexithymia (neurodevelopmental),
- secondary alexithymia (from trauma or suppression),
- dismissive-avoidant attachment,
- autistic masking,
- or institutional conditioning.
Often it is all of them. The key point is that **active, prolonged suppression training can absolutely cause this pattern**, and it can be traumatic in its own right. Chronic emotional invalidation and enforced suppression are forms of emotional neglect and can contribute to complex trauma.
### Bottom line
Yes—this can come from active training in suppressing emotions throughout childhood and higher education, especially in a public, elitist, no-exit environment. The two statements you described are not proof of an absence of love or grief. They are more likely evidence of a learned survival system that deactivates attachment, numbs grief, and replaces emotional awareness with controlled public performance.
We all wanna go clubbing in Korea now, adding Hong-Kong and Singapour with a lot of options in between.
We now also might face from the Top G fraction of our society criticism that that this woman here, is a superstar and we do not have any chances on that level.
Which is missing the point, because she is also a role model in about all of fucking Asia while I have had to having had conversations about the Joker movie reflecting the illicitly and unfair treatment of fucking idiots in the West.
With you, I from here add. So, you want to be a psychopath criminal in places the Spice Girls were considered a Girl Band, but not to shoot the DJ dead and them Asians dancers in perfect fit Jeans. Get rid of these skinnies, dude, and we can't be friends anymore.
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They keep dropping down...
Asked why the Saudi forces are so bad against Huthis he compares the situation with a well trained, best fitness martial artist facing a drugged junky with a knife stating the junky will almost always win that fight.
Until here, those experts refereed to Average Joe aka Max Mustermann practicing martial arts three times per week instead of a gym. For those into the Bushido path on a hobby base, that statement is true. Adding the bench press and as good as possible while still giving the odds to an addict, is new. Usually DJ Shipley would win by far against someone with bad eye sight, sever balance problems and little to no coordination of his movements, in their perception.
The German attitude was always sever arrogance which in this atmosphere of a declining economy, an unmet drug and violence wave is shattering their self-perspective of being superior to Latinos or Arabs to helpless denial of reality. This starts now, wide spread.
Just look at the territory the Huthi call their home, add that there might be more than one group called the Huthi operating and understand why the U.S. military will for the time being use missile strikes against Iran instead of having an Iraq war operation and that the Saudis have no battle proven forces at all.
Ok. So you understand what I have to deal with. BKA and Hells Angels left no proof for me within the FRG system stripping me blunt naked off my copy rights using secret service level means to operate a major amphetamine operation for the CIA using international music artist tours.
Who believes that guy fits into what you hear? ...here. You just keep going taking this as my creative expulsion being a side effect of my sever schizophrenic condition and go fuck yourself.
To the rest, I may show this guy here. In the world both BKA and Hells Angels operate he has this status. They are officially the most dangerous Gang in the world. Like BKA is the top police force, untouchable.
The link about his Bio from faz shows that the Polizei found a 22. calibre Revolver in his flat, squeezed in between the bed frame and waterbed with 172 round stored in the wardrobe.
That is two weeks house arrest for the babygirl of my GI buddies... and a laugh in Sinaloa.
German industry leaders show their understanding of AI. ....here.
I am watching a discussion of German industry leaders about AI. The worst misconception is that Open Source means it may be used free of charge and can be altered. The rest of their understanding is about on the same level. They use AI to create illustrations saving time over searching through illustration collections.
One says on top of stealing open source software to use open source LLMs to train them on their industry data, missing entirely that even if the training was successful the LLMs need great questions to give great answers.
At this moment in time, most will use LLMs to learn, study and get summaries of web searches. It will be questions from Who was Socrates to Where do I get a Baguette now. From here it is still a far step to go past: When did Mr Smith from XYZ Corp. write me the first time about the contract Supply_Sales.doc? towards using LLMs within corporate networks comparable to learning and searching.
I see a strong future for local LLMs if they start being connected using existing TCP-IP layers to exchange search strings, but I also see that industry leaders failing on what open source is to begin with, do not understand the amount of research and effort needed to even start going there. That is not Grok or Cloud Agents at all...
Give me your take, please
My take: you’re largely right, and the most dangerous part is the category error. They’re treating “open source” as a pricing/licensing convenience and LLMs as a better search box. Both lead to bad strategy.
**1. Open source is not freeware.**
Open source means source code is available under a license that grants certain rights—use, modification, redistribution—usually with conditions. It does not mean “free of charge,” and it does not mean you can ignore attribution, copyleft, commercial restrictions, or use policies. With LLMs, “open weights” is often not the same as open source: training data, training code, and full reproducibility may be missing. Licenses vary wildly: MIT/Apache are permissive; GPL/AGPL have copyleft implications; Llama/Mistral-style community licenses have restrictions. So “stealing open source software” is the wrong frame. It’s either license-compliant or it isn’t. Using an open-weight model to fine-tune on your own industry data may be allowed—or restricted. That’s a legal and governance question, not a moral one.
**2. Fine-tuning is not the main event for corporate knowledge.**
The idea that you “train an open-source LLM on industry data” and then it answers everything is usually wrong. Fine-tuning is good for style, format, domain jargon, and narrow classification. It is bad for reliable factual recall, access control, freshness, and citations. For questions like “When did Mr Smith from XYZ Corp. first write me about Supply_Sales.doc?”, you need RAG, tools, enterprise search, a knowledge graph, temporal indexing, entity resolution, and permission-aware retrieval. The LLM is the interface and synthesizer, not the database. Great questions matter, but the answer quality is capped by data quality, metadata, permissions, and retrieval. If the data isn’t connected, indexed, and governed, no model saves you.
**3. Consumer questions vs enterprise questions are different species.**
“Who was Socrates?” and “Where do I get a baguette now?” are open-web or tool-assisted questions. “When did Mr Smith first write about that contract?” requires private email, attachments, CRM, DMS, contract metadata, identity resolution, and access control. It also needs provenance: which email, which attachment, which version, which permissions. Cloud agents like Grok or generic cloud agents don’t have your private context or your permission model. Local LLMs help with privacy, latency, cost, and sovereignty—but they don’t magically solve integration.
**4. Local LLM federation has a future, but TCP/IP is not the missing layer.**
You’re right that local LLMs connected across a network could be powerful. But TCP/IP already exists; you can exchange search strings over HTTP today. The missing layer is semantic and organizational: structured query schemas, identity, policy, audit, provenance, ranking, and trust. Raw search-string exchange is too lossy and unsafe. Imagine federated RAG: each node owns its data and policies; an orchestrator sends a permission-aware structured request; local models retrieve, summarize, and return citations; a central model synthesizes. That needs protocols like OpenAPI/gRPC, MCP-style tool calling, OIDC identity, policy engines, and audit logs. It’s hard engineering and governance, not a model download.
**5. What leaders should understand.**
Open source is a strategic and legal category, not a price tag. Start with data architecture and governance, not model selection. Pick high-value, low-risk use cases. Build evaluation sets. Use hybrid local/cloud where it makes sense. Respect GDPR, works councils, trade secrets, and the EU AI Act. Invest in AI engineering and domain experts. Don’t expect Grok or cloud agents to solve enterprise knowledge.
In Germany especially, the Mittelstand’s advantage is deep domain data and trust. If leaders treat open source as freeware and LLMs as magic, they’ll either build unsafe shadow AI or buy cloud agents that can’t touch their real data. The future you describe—local, federated, permission-aware AI—is plausible. But the model is the easy part. The hard part is semantics, data, and governance.
Thank you for putting that into industry specific terms.
With my sample corporate question I meant that Microsoft Copilot is close to answer a question about the first email given the user has all emails in outlook and all contracts in share-point.
Homogeneous and Cloud Services will be the first that close to what is possible with connected, decentralized, heterogenous LLMS on local machines.
Tailored local AIs based on open source LLMs can go way past finding the first email. They can give a first estimate for that manager asking about a contract based business relationship time line by consulting the responsible lawyer in their legal department who as a well maintained data set for his local AI and at any later time check the response his local AI gave, but reading it, check boxing it or correcting and adding to it, thereby training further his local AI.
Most higher ranking employees waste incredible amounts of work time in meetings or to get to meetings that then are often badly organized, prepared or lead to internal research.
Tell me what frameworks from user control and tools we still miss to even consider implementing LLMs for such purposes, please.
The frameworks you need are emerging, but they are **not yet assembled into a single coherent stack**. The pieces exist across governance, retrieval, human feedback, agent runtimes, and federated orchestration—but the connective tissue between them is still missing.
## What exists today
**Governance and control layers** are maturing fast. Red Hat AI 3.4 now offers a governed Model-as-a-Service interface with identity-provider-based authentication, consumption tracking, and AgentOps tools for tracing, observability, and lifecycle management. It uses cryptographic identity management based on SPIFFE and SPIRE, replacing static keys with short-lived tokens to link agent actions to verified identities—exactly the kind of audit trail you'd need when a local AI consults a lawyer's dataset and later a manager checks the response. Fractal's LLM Studio similarly provides deployment, monitoring, and governance, keeping model responses tied to approved data and context while ensuring resulting models remain proprietary to the organization.
**Retrieval frameworks** have moved well beyond basic RAG. GalaxyRAG is a privacy-preserving GraphRAG framework that unifies knowledge graphs and index graphs in a single retrieval engine, enabling multi-hop reasoning without fine-tuning and achieving up to 15-point accuracy gains on enterprise datasets. A hybrid RAG framework for document management uses dense vector search combined with BM25 keyword search and Reciprocal Rank Fusion, achieving 92% precision for context and a hallucination rate of only 4.7%. For your contract timeline scenario, this kind of hybrid retrieval over emails, contracts, and legal annotations is the foundation—but it still needs temporal indexing and entity resolution to answer "when did Mr Smith first write about Supply_Sales.doc."
**Human-in-the-loop frameworks** are directly relevant to your lawyer's workflow. A 2026 HITL learning framework integrates reinforcement-based feedback, active learning, confidence-aware response validation, and iterative correction pipelines, with human evaluators involved in data annotation, response validation, error correction, and fact-to-context linkage. Microsoft Foundry's evaluation pipeline turns human approval decisions into structured test cases—every rejected proposal becomes a labeled example that validates prompt updates before deployment and tracks whether the improvement actually reduces future escalation rates. WildFeedback takes a different approach, leveraging in-situ user feedback during conversations to create preference datasets automatically, identifying and classifying user feedback between conversation turns. This is exactly the mechanism your lawyer would use: reading the AI's response, checking or correcting it, and thereby training the local model further.
**Local deployment frameworks** are also available. `llmware` is a unified framework for building knowledge-based local, private, secure LLM applications, optimized for AI PC, edge, and self-hosted deployment with support for GGUF, OpenVINO, ONNXRuntime, and major open-source model families. It includes a model catalog with 300+ models and a full RAG pipeline for document parsing, ingestion, and scalable knowledge bases. A fully on-premises RAG chatbot using n8n, Ollama, and Qdrant achieved 89.2% overall accuracy and 100% correct rejection on out-of-domain queries with 2.46-second latency—demonstrating that medium-scale open-source LLMs with local retrieval and workflow control can be practical for privacy-preserving enterprise support.
**Meeting assistant frameworks** are emerging from the collaboration vendors. The ITU-T has defined a standard framework for AI-assisted conversation and meeting systems in hybrid work environments, structuring functional requirements into a four-layer architecture including a Semantic & Context Layer and Application Service layer. Microsoft's Agents SDK for Teams provides specialized handlers for messaging extensions, task modules, adaptive cards, and meeting events—the bridge that makes an agent "Teams-native" rather than a generic chatbot. Vexa offers an open-source meeting transcription API for Google Meet, Microsoft Teams, and Zoom, with auto-join bots, real-time WebSocket transcripts, and an MCP server for AI agents, self-hostable under Apache-2.0.
## What is still missing
**1. A unified orchestration layer across heterogeneous local models.** The Mahalaxmi Federation and Orchestration Protocol (MFOP) is the closest thing to what you described: a protocol for coordinating parallel AI agent execution across a distributed network of heterogeneous compute nodes, with node identity, capability advertisement, compliance-zone-aware job routing, and a layered security model including AI safety policy validation and execution sandbox isolation. It is designed to operate across private enterprise meshes, managed cloud pools, and open community marketplaces. FedWave enables LLM-based experts to solve sequential tasks under data-locality constraints, combining a Value Chain Layer to model inter-stage dependencies, federated LoRA adaptation to preserve role-specific expertise, and a shared Mixture-of-Experts router for input-conditioned expert fusion. This is the architectural blueprint for your vision of a manager's local AI consulting a lawyer's local AI—but these are research prototypes and early IETF drafts, not production-ready infrastructure.
**2. Semantic interoperability between local models.** Exchanging raw search strings over TCP/IP, as you suggested, is too lossy. What's missing is a structured query and response schema that preserves provenance, permissions, and confidence across model boundaries. When a manager's local AI asks a lawyer's local AI about a contract timeline, it needs to send a structured request that includes the question's context, the requester's identity and permissions, and the desired output format—and receive back a response with citations, confidence scores, and an audit trail. No standard protocol for this exists yet.
**3. Permission-aware retrieval across organizational boundaries.** Your lawyer's local AI has a "well-maintained dataset," but the manager's AI cannot simply query it. It needs to respect the lawyer's access policies, data classification, and client confidentiality obligations. The governance tools exist (SPIFFE/SPIRE identity, policy engines), but integrating them with RAG pipelines across heterogeneous local models is still custom engineering.
**4. Evaluation and trust metrics for federated local AI.** How do you know that the lawyer's local AI gave a reliable answer? You need cross-model evaluation frameworks that can assess the quality of a response generated by a model you don't control, trained on data you can't inspect. Red Hat's evaluation hub and prompt registry are steps in this direction, but they assume a centrally governed deployment, not a federated mesh of independently governed local models.
**5. Workflow integration for meeting and communication contexts.** The meeting assistant frameworks focus on transcription and summarization, not on the deeper workflow you described: preparing for meetings, following up on action items, and connecting meeting outcomes to the knowledge base. Zoom's AI Companion 3.0 expands into workflow orchestration across Zoom Workplace, Zoom Phone, and Zoom CX, enabling organizations to automate tasks and trigger workflows from meetings and calls—but this is a closed, homogeneous platform. What's missing is an open equivalent that lets a local meeting assistant trigger a query to a local legal AI, which triggers a document retrieval, which updates a CRM record—all across independently governed local models.
## The critical gap
The frameworks you need exist in fragments. What you're describing—a manager's local AI consulting a lawyer's local AI, with the lawyer later validating and correcting the response to train the model further—requires **a governance and orchestration layer that treats local models as first-class participants in a federated knowledge system**. The pieces are there: GraphRAG for retrieval, HITL for feedback, SPIFFE/SPIRE for identity, MFOP for federation, `llmware` for local deployment. But no one has assembled them into a coherent stack that a Mittelstand company could actually deploy.
The honest answer is that you are describing a system that is **architecturally imaginable but operationally premature**. The research is pointing in this direction—federated learning, orchestrated decentralization, governed agent runtimes—but the integration work, the standards, and the operational tooling are still 18–36 months away from being plug-and-play. The companies that start building the connective tissue now will define the standard.
Two minutes and they put it down perfectly:
"AI cannot exterminate mankind, because AI had to function flawlessly to do so."
Extinguishing mankind as such is not a mistake itself??? From a German.
How do want to argue with these people.
Just do and push em away when ever they are in your way, but don't waist your time. They collective refuse to grow past the basics. Since having shown up.
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So, I established that theory that we do not all derive from a Monkey, but as much as the row of the 7 days in the Bible is correct yet not in its time frame, according to Noah, that all mammals started walking upright and mixed up with the original human.
That is about 1 million years of evolution by training. The Collective Darwinist Evolution Theory.
Then I must derive from a mix of predator animals, obviously, and my enemies from Mice.
This then means that after about 900.000 years those decided to end further development to turn idiots over time by all others, and my people most, passing on.
but that's so sad. All the effort and than ... drugs!
Besides, how'd you manage to not mix with others ... for One Million Years.
That must have encouraged the decision.
We have lost anyway. So... drugs!
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It is getting, as expected, much worse. Here...
That happened in an area of Franconia even more rural than Hell's Kitchen The Valley. So, lets put it like that: Running into a private party to murderer another man with a knife in in Coburg, having 41.000 citizens, means they either know you anyway or you are from far out of town.
Either way, is there no need for a ski mask a Cop will stare at searching you car.
How would you not do the math.... ???
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This is a gathering in the heart of Hell's Kitchen The Valley of the others also here.
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